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Here we go again...
Well, I had my first day at school today. I would like to say that it was fun and I met a lot of people who seemed to really like me.... but that would be a lie. The councilor lady showed me around today because no one else could, considering it was busy the first day, blah blah blah. We hadn't even made my schedule yet when we got there so we had to wait forever and a day with the councilor lady saying that I couldn't be in all my old favorite art classes because they were full. Yay me. I couldn't get into metal working and she basically told me that going into digital design was pointless because it only teaches you the basics, nothing more and I already learned the basics the first semester of last year. ANYWHO! I also wasn't allowed to take airbrush and either one of the drawing classes. There's only one art like thing that I can take and that's photography. That class sounds like it would be a whole bunch of fun... but there's a bill for it. They don't do it digitally so I'd have to buy a completely new camera, plus the paper to print it out on and something else... i forget. Also, there's a $20 fee for just signing up for the darn thing. The councilor lady told my mom that we'd spend more than $150 total for just one semester. Mom says it's fine with her if that's really what I want to do but I feel awful for asking so much from her. XC And about choir... sheesh. I have to try out to get in an actual class for it. Their beginner's course isn't an actual class. It's only half of the lunch period. So, I opted to try out but the councilor lady said that she would have to arrange that sometime when the director isn't busy. Hopefully I can audition tomorrow but I honestly have no clue what to expect... or even what to sing. I miss my old choir. And for lunch, they have to take my picture sometime and put it on a student ID JUST so I can swipe it so it will go straight onto my account for that day. This, my friends, is utterly and undeniably lame.
Anyways, there are three stories to this upside-down building that is the new school. And I only have 5 minutes to go from class to class, while stopping at my locker an some point in the stinking day. I'm thinking that I should skip some time from lunch to go and put things in my locker and prepare myself for the other half of the day. Eight books are just too many to carry in my backpack up and down stairs and whatnot.... but I just don't think that I'll have the time. Heck, maybe I should carry that many all day. Good exercise? Ya? I am getting kinda fluffy along the middle, i think. X_X Where was I again? *reads* O yea! I was just about to tell you how awful my lunch period was! Okay, I am a new kid. It is the rule of all new kids to sit at a table by yourself until someone comes up and talks to you. Well, I got my french fries an whatnot and sat down at an empty table, looking at my schedule to try and decipher all of the numbers and where they might be. All the sudden, someone comes and sits at the table. HE WAS SO FREAKING SCARY!!!!! I have no idea why but he looked like he wanted to eat me and he just stared. I said hi, feeling very awkward and he replied, but it was in this creepy low tone you only here in movies when someone's in a dark alley and the killer comes up behind them and whispers before they strike! I almost peed mah pantz!!!!! Lol, not really but it was creepy. So he sat there, eating and staring at me and then I suppose it was some of his friends who came because they were all guys. At least.... I think they were his friends. He didn't say anything to him. They talked to me a little bit about my teachers but otherwise ignored me. But that guy kept staring. I was SO thankful for the bell when it rang. I practically ran out the room when I was out of sight of the guy.
Classes went on and the teachers seemed nice enough... I donno. I could tell my geometry teacher had a short fuse when it came to teaching so I sat there. Y'know? I never saw a bathroom in the halls. Odd. ANYWAYS! My Earth Science teacher seemed nice, she was all sarcastic and kind of a smart alek, but I like her for that. ^.^ She reminds me of me. And she was by far the nicest one of the teachers there. No one really spoke to me, even when I asked them their names and everything. I just wanted to blend into the wall by the end of the day and not be seen by anyone. But then this prep girl had to push me aside in the hallway. So I tripped her and walked off. I may be new there but I will NOT be a ragdoll some princess wants to push around. That's just stupid. I met this girl though. She didn't really tell me her name but she was really nice to me. She showed me to the office after school and asked about the pics I had taken and put on my binder. She said they looked really cool and I was more than happy to boast about them. Turns out, she like photography too! I wonder if I can find her at lunch... I hope so. I don't know how much more I can take of being confused and secluded. It's bad enough my schedule's changing AGAIN once I try out for choir. Everything's so hectic right now and my head is spinning in a thousand different directions all at once. I just want my old friends to come up and help me out. I miss them a lot. I really do. I already have homework. And it's only the first day! How unfair is that??!?! I think they're trying to give me a heart attack before I'm 18.
In other news, I posted some pictures here on my lj and realized one thing. I look scary with sharp objects. X.X
I'm completely envying Sam right now. She gets to stay in the simple, good school where there aren't hicks and freaks and preps around every corner. Sam gets to stay with friends when I'm all alone up here. Missing everyone, especially my bf. It drives me crazy knowing that I can't just call and ask if he can come over and know he'll be there in 15 minutes. I want more than anything to go back every weekend, just to get a hug from him. Because I do miss him a lot. I know he's there for me mentally and everything though, so it helps. I know he cares and that's always a good thing. I donno... it's just harder without him. He stills sings sometimes over the phone and he'll play me a song on his guitar if I ask him to. I love it when he plays for me. I don't even think he realizes how happy it makes me when he does. I miss him. Sometimes I'll dream and I'll wake up and think he's there. I know that's silly and everything but it honestly does happen. But sooner or later, I come to my senses and realize that he's the hours away. Oy... I'm making myself want a hug. I just want a day with him, that's all. A day where I don't have to worry or be massively confused or lonely. Just a day hanging out with him. No sisters to make fun of me and call me names in front of him. But I'm beginning to think that a day is asking too much. I wish my parents knew what kind of stress they've put me through. But I can't tell them. Every time I try I end up getting yelled at or being called selfish and worse things.
My room here is nice and all... but I'd give everything I had just to go back to the way things were before. Haha, I'm glad this is typing and not some sort of video thing. No one really wants to see me wen I'm a mess like this. I just want it all to go away. I wanna be happy and cared about and I wanna tackle-hug Manda in the hallway again. I wanna make jokes about my teachers behind their backs and start another poking fight with whoever will play. I wanna do a flying wave at Cole or chase Katelyn down the gym because she stole my shoe. I wanna sing with mister Taylor and laugh at myself when I crack a note or two. I wanna have Katie laugh at me and call me a fruit or be poked by Tori and hear her say 'Whatever floats your snorkel.' I wanna tell Lee to get short again and tell him he's too tall. I wanna piggyback ride from Austin. And I wanna be able to go see Sarah and Becca on the weekends again. I wanna ride their horse Cody and see how fast he will go. I want to sleep on the couch again and yell at Sam because she won't turn off the tv. Overall, I think I just want. I don't think words can describe exactly how much I miss my old school. This new place will never feel right to me. No matter what I do or who I meet. And I hate to admit it, but it's taken an emotional toll on me.
Well, that's all I'm up for writing now. I'll post tomorrow if I have time.
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uncomfortableAnyways, there are three stories to this upside-down building that is the new school. And I only have 5 minutes to go from class to class, while stopping at my locker an some point in the stinking day. I'm thinking that I should skip some time from lunch to go and put things in my locker and prepare myself for the other half of the day. Eight books are just too many to carry in my backpack up and down stairs and whatnot.... but I just don't think that I'll have the time. Heck, maybe I should carry that many all day. Good exercise? Ya? I am getting kinda fluffy along the middle, i think. X_X Where was I again? *reads* O yea! I was just about to tell you how awful my lunch period was! Okay, I am a new kid. It is the rule of all new kids to sit at a table by yourself until someone comes up and talks to you. Well, I got my french fries an whatnot and sat down at an empty table, looking at my schedule to try and decipher all of the numbers and where they might be. All the sudden, someone comes and sits at the table. HE WAS SO FREAKING SCARY!!!!! I have no idea why but he looked like he wanted to eat me and he just stared. I said hi, feeling very awkward and he replied, but it was in this creepy low tone you only here in movies when someone's in a dark alley and the killer comes up behind them and whispers before they strike! I almost peed mah pantz!!!!! Lol, not really but it was creepy. So he sat there, eating and staring at me and then I suppose it was some of his friends who came because they were all guys. At least.... I think they were his friends. He didn't say anything to him. They talked to me a little bit about my teachers but otherwise ignored me. But that guy kept staring. I was SO thankful for the bell when it rang. I practically ran out the room when I was out of sight of the guy.
Classes went on and the teachers seemed nice enough... I donno. I could tell my geometry teacher had a short fuse when it came to teaching so I sat there. Y'know? I never saw a bathroom in the halls. Odd. ANYWAYS! My Earth Science teacher seemed nice, she was all sarcastic and kind of a smart alek, but I like her for that. ^.^ She reminds me of me. And she was by far the nicest one of the teachers there. No one really spoke to me, even when I asked them their names and everything. I just wanted to blend into the wall by the end of the day and not be seen by anyone. But then this prep girl had to push me aside in the hallway. So I tripped her and walked off. I may be new there but I will NOT be a ragdoll some princess wants to push around. That's just stupid. I met this girl though. She didn't really tell me her name but she was really nice to me. She showed me to the office after school and asked about the pics I had taken and put on my binder. She said they looked really cool and I was more than happy to boast about them. Turns out, she like photography too! I wonder if I can find her at lunch... I hope so. I don't know how much more I can take of being confused and secluded. It's bad enough my schedule's changing AGAIN once I try out for choir. Everything's so hectic right now and my head is spinning in a thousand different directions all at once. I just want my old friends to come up and help me out. I miss them a lot. I really do. I already have homework. And it's only the first day! How unfair is that??!?! I think they're trying to give me a heart attack before I'm 18.
In other news, I posted some pictures here on my lj and realized one thing. I look scary with sharp objects. X.X
I'm completely envying Sam right now. She gets to stay in the simple, good school where there aren't hicks and freaks and preps around every corner. Sam gets to stay with friends when I'm all alone up here. Missing everyone, especially my bf. It drives me crazy knowing that I can't just call and ask if he can come over and know he'll be there in 15 minutes. I want more than anything to go back every weekend, just to get a hug from him. Because I do miss him a lot. I know he's there for me mentally and everything though, so it helps. I know he cares and that's always a good thing. I donno... it's just harder without him. He stills sings sometimes over the phone and he'll play me a song on his guitar if I ask him to. I love it when he plays for me. I don't even think he realizes how happy it makes me when he does. I miss him. Sometimes I'll dream and I'll wake up and think he's there. I know that's silly and everything but it honestly does happen. But sooner or later, I come to my senses and realize that he's the hours away. Oy... I'm making myself want a hug. I just want a day with him, that's all. A day where I don't have to worry or be massively confused or lonely. Just a day hanging out with him. No sisters to make fun of me and call me names in front of him. But I'm beginning to think that a day is asking too much. I wish my parents knew what kind of stress they've put me through. But I can't tell them. Every time I try I end up getting yelled at or being called selfish and worse things.
My room here is nice and all... but I'd give everything I had just to go back to the way things were before. Haha, I'm glad this is typing and not some sort of video thing. No one really wants to see me wen I'm a mess like this. I just want it all to go away. I wanna be happy and cared about and I wanna tackle-hug Manda in the hallway again. I wanna make jokes about my teachers behind their backs and start another poking fight with whoever will play. I wanna do a flying wave at Cole or chase Katelyn down the gym because she stole my shoe. I wanna sing with mister Taylor and laugh at myself when I crack a note or two. I wanna have Katie laugh at me and call me a fruit or be poked by Tori and hear her say 'Whatever floats your snorkel.' I wanna tell Lee to get short again and tell him he's too tall. I wanna piggyback ride from Austin. And I wanna be able to go see Sarah and Becca on the weekends again. I wanna ride their horse Cody and see how fast he will go. I want to sleep on the couch again and yell at Sam because she won't turn off the tv. Overall, I think I just want. I don't think words can describe exactly how much I miss my old school. This new place will never feel right to me. No matter what I do or who I meet. And I hate to admit it, but it's taken an emotional toll on me.
Well, that's all I'm up for writing now. I'll post tomorrow if I have time.
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