Amidst the turbulent rocking waves of a world turned upside down... I realized..

Okay.

We have three horses now. And zomigosh I think they like me. Mostly because I give them food and love them to itty pieces, but hey, I'll take what I can get.

We now have three lambs for this year! So adorable. X) Two boys that are totally black and one girl that's mostly black but with white on her forehead. With their long ears to the side, this chica looks kinda like a mini-cow, but they won't let me call her that. Or Oreo. Because, we have a white sheep named Cookie. Then we have Oreo Cookie, yes? : D Hey, it's better in my mind than 'Flower', because she USED to have a bit of white on her tail, and a few of my family said that she reminds them of Flower off of Bambi.


Yeah.

But I say 'used to have' on her tail because we've docked it off, which makes me rather said. Of course, we had to dock it right on the line where the white ended and the black began. Of course.

Um....what else to say....?

I miss my online friends, lots and lots?

I don't know if I mentioned 'The Erin Shirt', but it is of the awesome? I got it for five bucks, but I would have paid much more than that, because I saw it and said, "Dude, that totally looks like one of Erin Spenser's shirts! :D" It had grey and black horizontal stripes, with a V-neckline and it's of a nice, stretchy(aka: comfy) material. So I conned-- her, kindly asked my grandmother to buy it for me, because I was at the store with her. And she diiiiid! And I looove it! And several people have complimented me on it. Which makes me feel bubbly inside for some reason. I'm thinking horizontal stripes look okay on me or something, because most of my fave shirts have horizontal stripes. I heard that wasn't flattering, though. Maybe for a more typical shape? Anyways, I <3 the shirt, and had to mention it.

MTM finished reading 20,000 Leagues Under The Sea, which I tried to read years ago but didn't get to because I checked out the wrong one. X_X Just a tip, there IS another book by the same title, but it's a pretty lame book in a sort of journal form about this guy and his weird ideals on life. It would have been hilarious and interesting if I hadn't totally been in the mood for a sci-fi fantasy adventure. Dude. Anyways, she's writing reports on Conseil, and Captain Nemo(who is of the freaking awesome), and all that jazz. And since she's been churning out poems like no tomorrow, she wrote one about....DUNDUNNNNN! Captain Nemo! The Lawliet of the literary world! : D Or one of them, anyways. So she handed the poem to me and begged me to write music to it. This has worked in the past, with her writing lyrics and me on melody/accompaniment, so I gave it a shot, and it sounds pretty awesome so far. I'm afraid it's too familiar, though. But that's my paranoia or something kicking in.

AAAAAnd I'm reading the Counte of Monte Cristo, which I borrowed from Moony AGES ago. And I'm 3/4ths of the way through. And it is AWESOME. I laughed at the part where the Count was rambling about telegraphs, and the news the next day that a faulty telegraph was sent through.

Okay, so it's not that funny to you, but *I* thought it was hilarious. And weird as it may seem, the movie ADDED stuff. Usually, they take away in an adaption of that sort, simplify the plot so as to cut back on time and complexity(lol), but half the stuff in the movie wasn't IN the book. Though admittedly, there have been several things bookwise that made it more intriguing - the fact that Fernand and Mercedes were cousins(oh yah), the fact that Edmond was already first mate, and more display of his utter devotion to his father, and the genius of the Count's schemes. In a way, he reminds me of the Phantom in this one, and I'm rather fond of thinking that they were influenced either by each other or by some other character that I haven't read of yet. As fleeting as the Count's....countenance...XD is to me, so was Erik's when I read Phantom Of The Opera. It is like you try your hardest to figure him out, but it's impossible - there are four more parts to his keen little mousetrap that one would never have guessed at.

Hm....what else? My avatar on this entry(the one with the eye) reminds me of Sandyra. I dunno why.

And I have that Captain Nemo song that we wrote stuck in my head....... X_X

And my cousins are relentless in their teasings. They keep telling me to get a boyfriend, darn it! Only because they want to tease me about it!

I'd much prefer a love song than a love story, myself. At least for the time being. If I ever get a mushhead(as I so tenderly refer to Moony's still-on BF, now) of my own, he'd have to keep up with my antics, I sware.

Because I can hardly keep up with myself anymore!

Love you all and miss you oodles of noodles.

Contacts are pretty much awesome when they work right. Yarly.

AND MY PIANO IS BACK IN OUR HOUSE AGAIN! :DDDD My baby cousin loves to play it.

And I finally saw August Rush. EVERYONE who knows me has said that I absolutely MUST see this movie, since it will probably be my most favorite film of all time. So I watched it. Yes. And my favorite scene was the one with the father and son in the park playing guitar together. YARLY. <3

Okies, okies. It's been too long since I updated. I know. You're all thrilled now. XD Right.

New things:

-Ice Storm(shush, I know it was ages ago, okay? I said it had been a long time)
-Dumb sheep(the sheep aren't new. But their expressions might be. And remember the lamb I helped bottle feed? My baby? SHE IS SO THE CUTEST. And she leaps up in this totally adorable way when she's happy. Kicking her legs out in all directions and twisting her fluffy white body sideways. It's LOLable)
-A very good friend of mine has a boyfriend now. ;)
-And so does another good friend of mine! D: ZOMIGOSH YARLY!?
-I've been going to this weekly Youth Group thing, and it's really cool so far. :) I went the first time with Ally(my cousin, remember?) and her sister, as well as MTM. If I hadn't gone, none of them would have. See what I have to deal with? A bunch of scaredy-cats. *pokes them*
-I have a headache. Ouch.

Anyways, met a girl at the Youth Group(daughter of the youth pastor. Go figure. XD) who within five minutes of knowing me was talking about starting a Christian band with me. As soon as she heard we both played piano. XD Silly enthusiastic peoples, you make me smile.

Youth Group has a dancing session in the beginning, learning interpretive dance routines to Christian songs, which is fun to watch, but I feel no desire to join. I don't express myself through dance. I choose other means, you know?

Okay, so a little testimonial-type thingy... there's this girl at the Youth Group. She seemed a little snarky, and was talking bad about the awesome youth band we have(one of the members MTM is starting to favor already), saying they were 'freaks and drummers' or something. I didn't want to be mean to her or judge her or anything, since I know nothing about her, but I didn't go seeking out her acquaintance, you know?

Well, sometimes God plans amusing and strange things to you that you just have to smile at. This week she came up to me out of the blue and started showing me her ringtones on her cell phone.(Why? I dunno...teens are random) She said she could only stand one song, and it was her ringtone, etc...I tried not to mention that in the three months I HAD my laptop, I had acquired several hundred songs at least...

Then she hands me this notebook, showing me this random-sounding piece of writing. I didn't get what it said - it seemed to be a note to someone. I dunno. *shrug* I didn't comment much, but responded alright I suppose. This girl was trying my patience, but I told myself not to judge or be mean. But I couldn't help being a little cold - I'm not naturally a rambler in public, really, preferring not to say anything unless I mean it or need to -and lately, I've been struggling with people I meet just taking-taking-taking from me, and leading me down a road of drama. They force me unknowingly into a ring of being-in-the-middle I can't escape from.

During the ministry-period tonight, she sent the notebook back to me, and a pen. It basically said she knew this guy at school who had a girlfriend, but said he loved HER, and she told him she loved him back, and was that wrong of her to love him?


.....0_o

Why, I wondered, is this nearly complete stranger asking me for relationship advice? GG, when you say my talent is encouragement, I had no idea the implications such a 'spiritual gift' would bring. Why do people ask ME for advice? I've never dated, had a boyfriend, or even been on a date. The only time my lips ever kissed a boy, I shoved him over and ran away shouting at him. I holed myself up reading most of my young life, and I loved it. I don't do relationships or seek people out I can give advice to. But for some reason, people must get the feeling I know something they don't.

Obviously, I wrote her back a note with the most sensible answer, in as simple and yet gentle a term as I could. "Trust and faithfulness are VERY big and important in a relationship. If he does this to his current gf, staring a relationship with you when he's still in a relationship with her, why wouldn't he do that to you? If he does love you, like he says, he would leave her and start dating you. It isn't wrong to love a person - but if he loves you he should know she isn't right for him, and would date YOU." Or something like that. She started writing a note back to me, as I tried to listen to the sermon and stop asking myself what I had said to make her think I was the younger, female version of Dr. Phil, or whatever.

She didn't finish her note before we were let out, and she said that she got exactly what I was trying to say, and something else I didn't hear all the way. Anyways, it was weird, and kind of funny. Perfect strangers are asking me how to deal with things. I've never seen her asking other people these kinds of things, so I don't think she's just gushing to anyone nearby...but it was odd.

GG, that situation I emailed you about is going okay, btw. There was a text or two, but I'm trying not to initiate anything extra or questionable. A bit stand-offish, I guess. But that's the only way I see to handle it. The problem is similar to above - I don't ASK to give them advice, or ASK about their lives. They just COME to me, and I don't want to just say, "No, bugger off, won't ya?"

So I guess I'll just stay a little colder to them, or something. I don't need to give advice, and I don't need other people to tell me what's wrong with me, or anything like that. I just...I like to be myself, and sometimes to be by myself. *shrug* I know who I don't want to associate with, but they just FOLLOW me around.

Anyways. CONGRATS TO MY TWO FRIENDS GG AND MOONY. I STILL LOVE YOU MORE THAN HE DOES. BWAHAHAHAHA. <333

Now I may go to Gramma's and play the wii all night. Relationship free, and just fine that way. I feel like I have to remind everyone that. Because it's true. And people seem to be a bit afraid that I'll get depressed or something if I don't have the same joy of a relationship that they do. It's true - I'm jealous that the guy'll get more time with you than I'll get. But that doesn't mean I don't like him, or that I'll ever stop loving you. :) Or that I'm unhappy.

Next time, remind me to tell you all the story of "Sheets of Egyptian Cotton", okay? It's a really sweet story, and a bit funny. ^.^